Scared.

I hate the feeling of going to bed, thinking it might be the last time I do so. Will I wake up? 

Will I get another clot that finds its way into my lung again? 

Will I ever even recover from this PE? 

I didn't get to breastfeed my son for asking as I would've liked, for which I feel so guilty.

I want to see my kids grow up, grow old. 

I love life.