Scarcitment

Oh my god have been told I might be getting discharged in 6 or 7 weeks if all keeps gping well! Obviously it is fantastic news and im so excited to be given the chance of my life back. But, I cant shake this feeling of fear that seems to cme with it. Im so scared that im not ready and I wont be able to keep up my supposed recovery without the hospital. Some days I feel fantastic and Im certain I can beat this, but over days I am still so consumed by the illness I cant even see myself. The fact that I had the orst day I have had in a few months on the day I got told I might be leaving didn't help either! I just hope the next few weeks get my strength up, the doctor thinks I will relapse but if I put on some more weight I might make it through uni. I dont want to relapse, I dont think I can gt through this again! I hope I can get on he right path when I leave and stay there, ut im not so naive to say I know I wont get led into the darkness again, after all it lured me into it in the first place!