Saturday morning,tired,much slower mentally,but alive
Good morning journal,the time is now 6:36am,I have been awake since 4:00am when Buttons,our oldest dog,woke me with her usual hefty "nose nudge",it's as if she knows that I'm deaf and that she actually has to physically touch me to attract my attention,animals do seem to have a sixth sense where their owners are concerned,at least mine do. They are also very cunning,when I went to open the door into our back garden to let her outside,she wasn't behind me,and,on further investigation,I found her fast asleep on my side of the bed beside my sleeping wife and her brother and sister,so I decided to leave them to it and went in search of an invigorating coffee. I am trying to conserve as much energy as I can over the next few weeks as March is going to be very busy for me,my care worker came to visit us on February 12th,and,after a discussion with my wife when I was out of the room,has booked me in to see my psyche doc Doctor Prince on March 7th,.....it seems that our dogs are not the only sneaky ones living in our home. Mind you,mentally I am finding things a struggle,it takes me much longer to focus on any train of thought,my powers of concentration are virtually non existent,and my voices take up a huge part of my mind,so I can see why my wife is worried about my mental state. On the good news front,the disability people have finally sorted out the problems with my payments,and last Saturday,we finally received all of the money that was backdated to July 2013,so we don't have to worry about the bills for another month or two,and I will receive my regular monthly payment next Friday,and there is an amended letter on it's way to me so that I can take it to the people in authority that need to see it to make the necessary adjustments to my employment benefit and my housing allowance and such. On Monday,we will finally have the new exterior doors fitted that we have been promised for months,and on Tuesday,the people from lifeline will call to give me an emergency buzzer to wear round my neck so that if I fall when my wife isn't home,I can press it and someone will come to my assistance,I think they are also going to install a new telephone for the deaf with my buzzer connected to their office through that somehow,I will keep you updated on that at a later date. I have my own doctor to see on February 27th for my monthly check up,and also to find out the results of my last brain scan and my recent blood tests. Then there is the psyche doc on March 7th,the endocrinologist Doctor Mackay on the 14th,and the urologist Doctor Rau on the 17th,sandwiched in between all of these,we have an appointment with Janet from the citizens advice bureau on the 11th when we will finally put the final touches to the debt relief order which will effectively make us bankrupt,it is very sad,but unfortunately we have no other option left open to us,we simply have to pay the courts the required fee,and we are protected from our creditors for a year,after which time,we can then look at the situation again,hopefully by that time we might be in a better position financially to enable us to pay at least some of our outstanding bills,time alone will tell. Well journal,that's it for now,we are so grateful to our Father in Heaven who still strengthens us daily,and for His continued guidance and protection,and for His love and power that we feel in our hearts and throughout our home every moment of every day. Thank you Jesus,.......Amen.