well thank you all for your support and advice. it is saturday morning.. nice warm day, i am thinking of cooking chicken enchiladas for lunch and helping my husband plant strawberries. my brother and his family is coming over. he is a heavy drinker, i am sure my hubby will drink a couple while he works outside and around the house. i fell like it would be a great day to drink a few myself. the craving is already there even though i haven't even had a shower or finished my coffee yet. I pray i will resisit because i hate the way i feel when i drink especially the next day and i do not want to be too hung over to go to church again..