Saturday-June 14th,2008-

On Friday the 13th of June,I found the possum dead.I screamed when I saw and I cried.This little guy came to the porch every day at 4 o clock in the morning and he did not look to good.I gave him water and food.He liked the cat food and one day he kind of smiled at me.He was just so sick and tiny and believe me ==The late Gandi said before he was killed..You can tell the kind of society it is by the way it treats its animals and he was so right! Japan,Great Britain have outlawed these experiments on animals and they still help their people.Look..I cannot leave Brad at all and it is because I dont have a lot of money.I also have 3 cats and I will not leave them for any apartment or job.My cats mean everything to me and little Tooey is my best friend.She is just a little baby and she is all I have now and noone knows this pain.One day I fainted in the house and my cats woke me up and when I came to I began to cry and I realized this--he never loved me.Brad does not like to be alone and when I am not here..he freaks.He just does not like to be alone and this I noticed when I met him in 1996.He does not like to be alone at night and he sleeps with the lights on.This is the reason why I do not want to be around these seniors here.Half of them are old codgers and the men over 70 here are on their last leg.Some of them havent read a book and some people just do not read.They hand around all day long and just complain.I cannot live this way.My late mother liked staying home..but I do not.It is boring.After I awake and do my chores,I go out and read the paper and such.I walk all over Seattle and do not take the bus and I feel better when I walk.But I have realized something the other day and it was this: There is no reason for me to go to this high school reunion now and I will tell you why.Number one-idiot will be there and once he has a few drinks,he can rather silly.Now let me say this:If you did not grow up in the 1960s,please do me a favor and forever hold your peace.I do not need to hear anymore about how self centered that my generation is.Well,excuse me..You are wrong..Because when we had children--we made more sacrifices then our parents.This twentysomething does not know what they are talking about.Number One--they had every electronic toy that came out and they were the first generation on the computer.They had the Internet and this has helped them get the jobs that they want.We did not computers in 1966 and to us..it was a word on paper.We also did not have any of these student support groups or grief counselors.We also did not have the gay and lesbian teenagers back then.But I knew of someone in 1966 that has never recovered.In fact,i do not think he is alive..but let me tell you this.He did not get along with his father and they constantly fought.So he ran away and in those days..he ran to Greenwich Village.And for two weeks noone knew where he was and in those days..noone gave a damm.Well,he was found after two weeks living in The Village with a elderly man.That was all that he told me and he just nev er recovered from it.In those days,things were so different but he told me later that he knew then that he was gay and he felt terrible.He told me never to tell anyone and in 1967 who could you tell?But now if this happens kiddies,the law is on your side.And the DA will believe you and you can get help.I have made all of these sacrifices for you only to be called self centered.Kiddies..some of you are so full of yourself..you do not know what the word means.I go to work..just to work and not to make friends and not to party afterwards.I ran a house,take care of the kitchen and am helping Brad in rehab.These drinks here are almost 5.00 a piece and that is almost 100.00 a week.Well,I am so sorry.find someone to bitch at..because right now I am in so much pain that if the wi d blew me down I would cry for 2 months.Remember kiddies..some people have got problems..but do me a favor please..Try not to be everybodys mother and try to be happy go lucky on the job also.And If you think as an employer that I have to like you..please leave my company.I hired you andnthat is enough and you are suppose to do a job.And if i am alone do me a favor--do not sit next to me and talk.It is none of your business kiddies and leave me to grieve alone.Thanks!