Same old stuff

Well, I guess no news is good news and for now I'm willing to believe that.  I have another doctor appointment, with my specialist, the first week of December but I'm fairly sure that nothing new will come of that.  The only thing of concern is that my doc mentioned possibly doing more banding next October.  Well.....that's all fine and dandy except that my husband won't be here as he'll already be deployed by then.  I realize the docs can't always predict when these things need to be done, but I am going to suggest that maybe they take a look before he goes out to sea because if he's not here, well, even if I could find someone to go with me I always feel better having my husband with me for these things.   Speaking of being out to sea....my husband just got back from his first week out.  I know from now on there will be many more times when he goes and honestly, I thought I was going to lose it for the four days he was gone, but I managed.  I guess I just didn't realize that as little as I ask him to do around here, it's still enough that I noticed.  It wasn't really boredom that got me because I'm alone so much of the time anyway that it doesn't matter, but rather knowing there were certain things I couldn't do without him.  We are going to work on that issue for next year.  For now, with him being gone only a week (well, sometimes up to two) at a time, I think I'll be ok....but when the big deployment comes he's going to have to face facts and realize that he can't just leave me here.  He's still skirting around that issue and honestly, sometimes I'd like to punch him in the head and tell him to wake up!  Luckily, I don't have the capacity to actually hurt another human being so he's safe.   Other than that, I think I'm very excited for the holidays to come.  Since the two of us have no family here we always make a very big deal of holidays....and let me tell you, the cats are not exactly complaining that we're getting a Thanksgiving turkey big enough for 5 people....it just means more for them to gobble down LOL I've also learned lately that I'm not going to apologize to ANYONE anymore for being tired all the time.  Recently, that's sort of gotten worse and there are days when I feel like I never get off the couch and honestly, as long as I'm still exercising a fair amount and not sleeping through my meds, and watching my diet, I'm going to do what my doctors told me to do a long time ago....rest when I need to even if that's most of the day.  On that note, I'm looking forward to having my husband home and not working for the first weekend in a while. Take care and God bless,CA (and of course, the kitty cats)

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You feel tired - you rest!!!!!!! Good on ya! There are no prizes for toughing it out!
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Sounds to me all ths stressful life of an military wife at times will hit us all hard. its an emotional roller coaster of ups and downs for us as we have to deal with alot of things while our husbands are out. I know ive been there way to many times in the past 18 years. feeling tired is all part of this job we have to deal with you rest as much as you need. its good for you anyways. take care and rest.