same old excuses
Well I finally got a letter from my son, but of course it was all the same thing, I know your mad, I swear I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time, and can you send money.
UGHHHHH can't tell you how many of these letters I have gotten over the years that say the exact same thing, I didn't do it I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time........ Well he was suppose to be on workrealse and in a drug program, only allowed to go to work, or look for work and be back at certian times....so how is it that he was arrested at some girls house that I've never heard of with another guy and they were all charged with possesing materials to make meth..... really why would you be anywhere near there. He says his drug consuler is going to write him a letter to get back in the program, I had been told this was the same guy he was arresed with but that ended up not being true. I also heard from a girl he had introduced me to that he was charged with escape....although that was never in the paper only the other charges.
I've decided the only way to keep my peace of mind is to go see him, which I HATE doing, I hate those places, I hate how they treat me and I hate that I have to do it again. Each time he has swore he was on the right track, and then it'a always someone elses fault or he was just in the wrong place. I know he is an addict and going back to prison won't fix that, it only makes it worse, but from what I hear about this program once you screw it up there are no second chances and he knew that. I feel like he could careless about how it affects me, but mostly his son. He's 7 now he understands what is going on and he is very angry at his Dad, can't blame the kid, everytime he has gotten the chance to be with him and get his act together it last for maybe a couple months and boom he's back in trouble and gone again and my grandson feels hurt, just like me.
Well, I have to get this out of my head for the day, if I don't I can't seem to complete even the simplest tasks. Going to call the place he is at now that I have the address and find out about visitation. My husband will be mad but I have to go....I have to see him face to face....he already knows I love him, I'm going for me to get anwsers he says he can't write because they read all his mail. I don't want to give up on him....I can't.....but I can no longer enable him and that's what I have been doing. He is 27 yrs old now not 18 he has to do it for himself and his son and I can't do it for him.
Prayers please I need Gods faith and healing now more that ever.
UGHHHHH can't tell you how many of these letters I have gotten over the years that say the exact same thing, I didn't do it I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time........ Well he was suppose to be on workrealse and in a drug program, only allowed to go to work, or look for work and be back at certian times....so how is it that he was arrested at some girls house that I've never heard of with another guy and they were all charged with possesing materials to make meth..... really why would you be anywhere near there. He says his drug consuler is going to write him a letter to get back in the program, I had been told this was the same guy he was arresed with but that ended up not being true. I also heard from a girl he had introduced me to that he was charged with escape....although that was never in the paper only the other charges.
I've decided the only way to keep my peace of mind is to go see him, which I HATE doing, I hate those places, I hate how they treat me and I hate that I have to do it again. Each time he has swore he was on the right track, and then it'a always someone elses fault or he was just in the wrong place. I know he is an addict and going back to prison won't fix that, it only makes it worse, but from what I hear about this program once you screw it up there are no second chances and he knew that. I feel like he could careless about how it affects me, but mostly his son. He's 7 now he understands what is going on and he is very angry at his Dad, can't blame the kid, everytime he has gotten the chance to be with him and get his act together it last for maybe a couple months and boom he's back in trouble and gone again and my grandson feels hurt, just like me.
Well, I have to get this out of my head for the day, if I don't I can't seem to complete even the simplest tasks. Going to call the place he is at now that I have the address and find out about visitation. My husband will be mad but I have to go....I have to see him face to face....he already knows I love him, I'm going for me to get anwsers he says he can't write because they read all his mail. I don't want to give up on him....I can't.....but I can no longer enable him and that's what I have been doing. He is 27 yrs old now not 18 he has to do it for himself and his son and I can't do it for him.
Prayers please I need Gods faith and healing now more that ever.
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