Same broken record

Always the same broken record. I try to have faith in loved ones and people in general but the same outcome "always" ends up happening. I certainly have faith and love for myself which is how I'm still alive and trying to keep my head above water. Just because someone says the words you long to hear ("I love you" or "I want you to be my wife") does not mean anything. They are just words, no actions follow. Actually the actions that follow are exactly the opposite of what is being said.
I am strong, I have been to hell and back again several times. I am in control of me and my destiny. I deserve to be happy and to be given what I give in return. I AM WORTHY OF BEING LOVED FOR WHO I AM NOT WHAT I PROVIDE! My only friend is me, myself and I. It's a lonely road I admit but it sure keeps you from being hurt, hearing about made up stories to strip away your dignity and respect that may have been established or, just drama in general. I avoid people whenever I have a chance.
"It will get better" is what I tell myself all the time. "Have faith and know in your heart that there is a plan for you."