Same as yesterday

Well, I tried the non-beer again last night and  got the same result as yesterday.  My ringing stayed at a lower tolerable ring.  I certainly hope this is not a fluke.  I don't feel it is a placebo either b/c the first time it didn't work.  It seems that salt is effecting my ringing whereas earlier with my T it didn't bother me.  I am starting to get a bit paranoid of doing things now.  I am afraid that if I do something wrong it will dramatically increase my T.  I am trying a masking therapy now from a man in Canada.  First try so far and it increased my T.  So now I am waiting for another suggestion from him today.  I don't feel like doing anything and I don't know why b/c i have had worse days with this thing.  I think it might be these stupid anti-depressants.  I wonder if I could handle it without them again.  I posted photos today and it makes me sad to know that I may never get to go to a  Nascar race ever again.  That was my first and last.  I reminds me of a time without pain.