same old....

hmmm, i need to keep up with this website!! things havent changed much. still lingering at my stepmoms house. dont have a stable place to live, and it doesnt look like i can be here much longer. ahhh, i feel so disoriented here! im so homesick =( still feeling quite lost and lonely, and dont know who i can trust. at least schools out for the semester, but i cant say that this summer has gotten off to a good start. havent seen my honey in awhile, and im kinda hurt that i have to hide me "emo" side from him and various other people who are tired of hearing it. i miss him. my parents are hurting me too. there is no good communication between us at all. i go to work crying all the time, and its gettin a lil embarrasing. but i just cant help feeling like this!! i mean, i do WANT to be happy, but when there is sooo much on my mind and so much negative energy around me, its so hard. i cant always help how i feel!! one thing i can look forward to, is my lovely therapist i see every week. she really is a help! im so sick of crying myself to sleep every night. ='(