Sadness

Today is a day of sadness. I don't like to get into fights with the person that I love, but there is times it happens. It feels like that I'm at a stand point that it hurts to much for anything to happen. I thought that I found someone that cares about me and treats me good. I'm starting to feel thats not the case anymore. I see other couples out there that is happy and enjoy each other. All I get is someone that only wants to spend time with me at night. If I'm lucky. Everyone at times need a break from work to do something else. I have a hobby of working on crafts. I enjoy selling them at fair and where ever I can sell them. Even times when I don't make money it hurts and sadness sets in but its part of life. Move on to the next one. I wish that people would see that. My real job is stressful. Who's job isn't. I have deadlines to meet and they just keep piling in job after job. The cost of babysitting these days is getting unreal. Thankfully, their is a friend of his that will take our son for nothing, but its just the times that is hard okay I have an extra two hours to work but just means I don't get to see him at all. Its like I've been down this path before on where one person cares about themselves and nobody else. I"m starting to see that all over again. Thats what caused my first divorce. I know that work is important to both of us and so is doing what we enjoy but come on, what about each other. When he usually comes home on Friday nights after bowling I'm usually working or sleeping because I worked a long day that day or have to get up early. To me I"m more of an early person than anything. Guess its hard times when I have to take them to work because of his schedule. Times I don't mind that but when they get out of control its hard.
 
I guess hope that one day it will change.