Sadie

Sadie, 

You were the best dog any human could ever possible own. I am so sorry I did not spend more time with you and cuddling with you. I am sorry I never got to take you to the beach or on more walks. I am sorry i didnt play with you more or love on you more. You were the best dog I ever had and I feel so empty now with you gone. I look everywhre and I see you. I just want you back home with me. I want you to walk into my bedroom and your tail to be wagging. I want your silly sloppy kisses. I just want you back because I was not ready to let you go. I am not ready to say goodbye. I was there with you as they sent you to heaven. I hope you felt my love and all of the years that I loved you. I hope you knew how much you were a good dog and a loving dog. You didnt deserve to be in pain or to have to live like that. I hope you can forgive me for doing that. I wish you could visit me in my dreams and let me know that you are okay and with Momma dog. I wish I could just hold you one more time. I dont know how to keep going from here. My heart hurts so much with the loss of you it is as if I cannot get air. Crying phsyically hurts and I do it because i cant stop feeling so lost. I miss you and I want you here with me. Im sorry I did not show you all of my love for you with all the seconds we had. im sorry you didnt get to sit on the couch and that you may have felt second to pup. that isnt true. I loved you so much. i just want you back. please come visit me in my sleep and let me know you got where you needed to go. 

i love you with all my being and i will never ever ever ever forget you.

love,

mom