Sad today...

So... today I am feeling really sad. Today marks the anniversary of the loss of my little boy, Nicholas. While I never got to hold him, I dream about him often, and today I am just feeling sad. I feel really cheated, because I can not have any more children of my own. I feel angry, because, he was discarded by my abuser like he was just a piece of garbage.
Nicholas would've been six years old today.