sad. lost. alone:(

Feeling emotionally shattered. I am not sure if I am coming or going just feeling broken into pieces. Too many emotions. Too little understanding just here. I admit not waking sounds good right now whether I regret it another day is entirely different story. But that feeling of sinking into a deep depression, sinking to a nervous breakdown point is all too scary.
Trying to work single handed with a person whom seems to go from love to hate in matter of days. trying to deal with my life in my own place, raising our three kids with little support is too much these days. Feeling as if no matter what I do or did is constantly held against me is too much to bear.