Sad/Depressed/Hopeless

So I still don't know what I have...
 
My goal on here was to be diagnosed by October 22 - Doesn't look like that is going to happen. 
My thyroid blood work is coming back normal. My doctor and I now suspect a possibility of Lyme disease. I had an EMG done and my muscles are all screwed up and almost every portion came back abnormal.
So I guess I am getting somewhere? Or at least narrowing it down.
I am hopefully going to see an LLMD next week and I really hope to get some answers soon because I can't live like this much longer. Everyday is such a struggle for me.
My mom is coming back to visit on Friday so she can help me through this while my husband is at work. Thank God for her an my husband.
 
By the way - A beautiful song that you should all check out...
 
Rob Thomas - "Her Diamonds"
It is about his wife who suffers from an autoimmune disorder similar to Lupus. Her diamonds refer to her tears falling on the floor and how he can't do anything to help her. I made my husband listen to it and we both cried together.
 
Until next time...
 
Maybe next time I will have good news. And I stress the maybe.
 
God Bless All