sad boring and dull life

well its been a long time since i was ere last time. in fab 2009 i was made redundent from my job and i started looking for another job, since then its been so hard. i have applied over 300 jobs but noting has happened as yet, dats why i said god bye to bruumie land and moved to luton to take aother chance, but life is dead quite ere too. i was moving close to london might help but its more of a problem getting a job an dtravelling in london. anyway i am ere now and ave to word hard to get someting, i am sittig at home getting stressed with not having money to help me do what i wana to do. i also like to have my own small private company but things are very hard so rit now not a good time. life seems stuck, dead and boring. it seems dat i have no meaning in life. i ave so many personal problem i need to deal with dat my mind some time gives up and i sit and banged me head wth wall. i need to do thinsg fats and be more faster in life but my luck has run out no job no money so harsh.i started to fink myself as an unsuccessfull person, those who were my friends thy ae it all in life and i ave nofing, nofimg, not even a good close fridn to share my feelings with,,, bored dead quiet slow moving life dont like  it hate it hate it