Sad and trying to move forward

I just feel like writing.  I find myself coming to this sight again and again.  My husband is a mystery and a mess.  I guess what is really pissing me off today is what he's doing to the kids.  He has no concideration for them and in my opinion is abandoning them.  He lives several states north of here and makes no move to try and be closer to us if only for the kids.  My sweet boy needs his dad as a male roll model.  My precious girl, almost 13, misses him so much I'm afraid of the attention she may seek from boys.   His online fantasy girl is the all important.  He is scrapping our family and I just want to strangle him for what he is doing to our kids! He's gonna miss out on the day to day and he knows I will probably divorce him for all of this and doesn't care enough. I didn't give him the physical attention when he wanted it and now this is supposed to be the result. GOD DAMN HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!