sad and mad

Just need to write this and get it out of my head.   I have been suffering from vertigo off and on the past two weeks.  It has been hell. I called and scheduled an appointment with my GP, but it takes time to get in. I go on Aug. 3rd.  While that doesn't help me now, I at least am making an attempt to go.  My husband just nags at me telling me that I am not doing anything to help myself. I told him I got a doc appointment on the 3rd, so that is something! He is mad at me because I have given up on docs for the time.  He thinks I should be pursuing all of this so much harder than I am.  Maybe I should, but I don't think he takes into consideration how many brick walls I have run into when going to docs. I am tired of it.  It is very tiring to go to a doc and be told that there is nothing wrong with me.  I tell him that all the time, but it is like he just doesn't get it.   I am tired of wasting time and money on doctors only to be told it is "not neurological" and there is nothing that they can find.  Why continue putting myself thru all of these expensive tests and seeing a new doc?  I think I have a better chance of winning the lottery than getting a diagnosis at this point. 
He just tells me that he can't stand seeing me like this.   I constantly tell him and my kids that I am ok.  I may not walk straight and I may slur my speech, but "there is nothing wrong with me".   The added stress from my husband doesn't make things easier on my health either.  I try to hide it when I have vertigo anymore because I don't want to hear that I need to go to the doc. I have an appointment.   That is the best I can do at this point.   The docs office doesn't try to get anyone in the next day. I have to wait...What more does he expect from me?  I know that I am rambling on and on in this journal entry. I am just so fed up with all of it.  I would like to know too what is wrong...but at this point, I am giving up.  I am not on my death bed, so why should I worry? the docs don't seem to give a damn. If I were sicker, they would maybe try harder to find out what is wrong with me.   I can walk and talk. I may need my cane or walker, but to pay a lot of money to a doc only to hear them say "there is nothing wrong" is too much for me to take anymore.