Ryan's 9th Year In Heaven

 
OMG I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT POSTING MY STORY ON DS FMO, I'm in AWE seeing all these Hugs from everyone, I didn't expect to see any since I'm not on here much.. I will post my story then read my Huggys, LOL LOVE ALL YOU MOMs My SOTH...I want to post pictures but the DS won't let me.. I've been So busy I haven't made the time like before, Forgive me..., I m such a nut case, CRAY CRAY!! LOL 
Well' We had a great time last night celebrating Ryan's 9th Angel day!! Still after all these years everyone one shows up, even friends that I thought were living on the west coast!! I was in Awe~~ 1 of Ryan's best girlfriends Shannon has pictures can't wait to see them, she is a gem, she's been the one who keeps us all having a yearly reunion, no need to have class reunions with Ryan in spirit in-sync together for sure!! Then we went to the beach where Ryan's ashes were scattered at the ocean, the spot everyone goes throughout the years, we had balloons with lights in them and let them go. The tide was going out, when we let them go the winds and the strength of the tide pulled the balloons like it was Gods hands grabbing them and brought them up so fast to heaven, I couldn't believe the feeling and how powerful the ocean is, it is where my higher power is (this was about 11:30 midnight?!) The force the strength, very powerful > "GOD" my higher power!!"ME" > Powerless!!! What it did do reminds me of the dream I had about 3 weeks ago..

MY DREAM; heart emoticon heart emoticon "In my dream, I was laying on the floor in a dark room, I opened the door, I walked in the next room, there was a table in the corner with a dim lit table light, it was a surreal warm feeling when I saw Ryan standing there with a red T-Shirt on to his knees as he did when he was a young boy. Ryan was standing there smiling at me... I said RYAN Your Alive and he said YES Mom I've been alive the whole time, I gave him a big HUG and said BUT WE had a funeral for You~~(I felt the LOVE and bond we always had) Ryan said Ya but Mom' it was different, I said what do you mean, Ryan said Somebody took me~~(I felt like if God took him) AND I WOKE UP!!!!I BELIEVE~~~