Round & Round & Round I Go
As I enter this I'm so far behind all correspondence, oh man.
I'm so all over the place sometimes lately that I swear most people could think I'm suffering from a split personality, just crazy. I went for pizza & to the Josh Groban concert last night with a dear friend & I'd have minutes where I just couldn't seem to focus on anything then I'd be fine then not, etc. etc. but what really did me in was the last song he sang "You Raise Me Up" & for some bizarre moment I just almost wanted to cry. We get the final word on hubby Friday morning. Darn it I've been trying to stay big, tough, strong, etc. etc., but at this very moment I want to say "stop the world I'm getting off".
I've spent the last 2 and a half days trying to trap/catch a feral female cat & her 5 kittens in order to get them off the street. We finally got the last kitten Sunday a.m. & got them all safely to the Humane Society but a super wonderful lady who is my work partner at the shelter fell in love with mommy & took her home. Mommy was no feral & is the sweetest most scared & confused little lady kitty but my work partner will so love & spoil her. She already has 2 dogs & 2 cats but thats the type of person she is. The problem is there is one more stray mommy kitty with 2 kittens still out there but for the last day they haven't been seen in their usual area. Hubby & I had her in our trap & when trying to transfer her to a kennel she got away. Dam it all how am I supposed to find peace if she's still out there somewhere with the ability to keep breeding dozens of more stray kitties.
I can't begin to tell you the physical aspect of the last couple days but even emotionally I feel like I want to say "Lord, I know you wanted me to have the job of guardian angel to your critters but I can't stand this one, what the @#)$(*#(&*$# am I supposed to do, yikes. I'm so praying that he'll draw these last 3 cats to our cat trap/cages so I can have peace.
Maybe I shd wonder - why am I such a suck for all these animals. My last guardian angel assignment had been abt 3 weeks ago outside the back of the cat shelter where we were chasing & rounding up 6 little ducklings that had no mother around, yikes was that en event.
Like am I weird or what friends reading this??????
Lets throw my lupus into the mix shall we. Our Lord must truly be guarding me in that respect because how I'm holding that in check is beyond my understanding at this point.
OK, I've got a super dear lady friend here, we became quite close over the last 3 yrs & she's going thru a horrible time with the guy she's living with. She told me once a while back that she spent so much time in life praying for a sister & that the Lord finally gave her me. I'm trying to keep part of me for her as she so always does for me.
When all is said & done I'm praying that I can dig deep for enough of me to get around here.
I would so appreciate prayers for Friday a.m. for us. I promise I'll keep everyone posted whether it's good or yes even bad (not right!!!!!)
Sorry if I rambled here and/or didn't make much sense but I just kind of typed as the emotions were flowing & this is how it came out.
I'm so all over the place sometimes lately that I swear most people could think I'm suffering from a split personality, just crazy. I went for pizza & to the Josh Groban concert last night with a dear friend & I'd have minutes where I just couldn't seem to focus on anything then I'd be fine then not, etc. etc. but what really did me in was the last song he sang "You Raise Me Up" & for some bizarre moment I just almost wanted to cry. We get the final word on hubby Friday morning. Darn it I've been trying to stay big, tough, strong, etc. etc., but at this very moment I want to say "stop the world I'm getting off".
I've spent the last 2 and a half days trying to trap/catch a feral female cat & her 5 kittens in order to get them off the street. We finally got the last kitten Sunday a.m. & got them all safely to the Humane Society but a super wonderful lady who is my work partner at the shelter fell in love with mommy & took her home. Mommy was no feral & is the sweetest most scared & confused little lady kitty but my work partner will so love & spoil her. She already has 2 dogs & 2 cats but thats the type of person she is. The problem is there is one more stray mommy kitty with 2 kittens still out there but for the last day they haven't been seen in their usual area. Hubby & I had her in our trap & when trying to transfer her to a kennel she got away. Dam it all how am I supposed to find peace if she's still out there somewhere with the ability to keep breeding dozens of more stray kitties.
I can't begin to tell you the physical aspect of the last couple days but even emotionally I feel like I want to say "Lord, I know you wanted me to have the job of guardian angel to your critters but I can't stand this one, what the @#)$(*#(&*$# am I supposed to do, yikes. I'm so praying that he'll draw these last 3 cats to our cat trap/cages so I can have peace.
Maybe I shd wonder - why am I such a suck for all these animals. My last guardian angel assignment had been abt 3 weeks ago outside the back of the cat shelter where we were chasing & rounding up 6 little ducklings that had no mother around, yikes was that en event.
Like am I weird or what friends reading this??????
Lets throw my lupus into the mix shall we. Our Lord must truly be guarding me in that respect because how I'm holding that in check is beyond my understanding at this point.
OK, I've got a super dear lady friend here, we became quite close over the last 3 yrs & she's going thru a horrible time with the guy she's living with. She told me once a while back that she spent so much time in life praying for a sister & that the Lord finally gave her me. I'm trying to keep part of me for her as she so always does for me.
When all is said & done I'm praying that I can dig deep for enough of me to get around here.
I would so appreciate prayers for Friday a.m. for us. I promise I'll keep everyone posted whether it's good or yes even bad (not right!!!!!)
Sorry if I rambled here and/or didn't make much sense but I just kind of typed as the emotions were flowing & this is how it came out.
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I do think you are having some extremeness in your life. I can see it by your words. I feel so badly as you are always such a rock to others and I can see how you are struggling so. First, I pray for many blessings this week for you and hubby. I pray boldly for good news for you on Friday!
About the furry friends situation. All I can think of is \"God is in control.\" Not just of that, but of it ALL. It can be hard for all of us to remember that so we do have to remind each other now and then haha. Remember that prayer a church lady taught me: Lord I praise you and thank you for the SOLUTION you ALREADY have in mind for the problem that is always on my mind. Oh how powerful those words are. I think it helps to just repeat them out loud whenever the problem creeps back into our thoughts. So, yes, we may have to say it every 8 seconds LOL! But somehow quoting it makes it so much more powerful. Please hang in there. God is with you ... just let him drive this week and relax. ; ) love you!
You\'ve got prayers for Friday morning, sweet lady. Many prayers, please let us know. I know how much of a toll this is taking on you both. Waiting is awful. Like watching water boil. Painful.
Must say that you likely are caring more about your feral cat hood that I would. I believe in God and, I hope this doesn\'t sound cruel, believe in survival of the fittest too. I LOVE all animals but some populations are just out of control, as you know. Bless their sweet souls if they cross the bridge. You\'re doing everything you can do, so know that and rest peacefully.
Josh Groban concert? You must have loved that! He has an amazing voice!!!
Hugs and will check in again later this week .... prayers mega prayers.
You are an angel to those cats that\'s for sure. I am late reading this but your always in my prayers. I am waiting to hear what happened on Friday. I have not heard from you and I am wondering why. well know I know why. You have sure been busy. I wish I could of been there with you at the concert.. I so love his voice and I cry to when he sings that song. So I think were normal. LOL Remember God is in control and all will be well. Love n prayers Frieda xoxoxo