Round & Round & Round I Go
As I enter this I'm so far behind all correspondence, oh man.
I'm so all over the place sometimes lately that I swear most people could think I'm suffering from a split personality, just crazy. I went for pizza & to the Josh Groban concert last night with a dear friend & I'd have minutes where I just couldn't seem to focus on anything then I'd be fine then not, etc. etc. but what really did me in was the last song he sang "You Raise Me Up" & for some bizarre moment I just almost wanted to cry. We get the final word on hubby Friday morning. Darn it I've been trying to stay big, tough, strong, etc. etc., but at this very moment I want to say "stop the world I'm getting off".
I've spent the last 2 and a half days trying to trap/catch a feral female cat & her 5 kittens in order to get them off the street. We finally got the last kitten Sunday a.m. & got them all safely to the Humane Society but a super wonderful lady who is my work partner at the shelter fell in love with mommy & took her home. Mommy was no feral & is the sweetest most scared & confused little lady kitty but my work partner will so love & spoil her. She already has 2 dogs & 2 cats but thats the type of person she is. The problem is there is one more stray mommy kitty with 2 kittens still out there but for the last day they haven't been seen in their usual area. Hubby & I had her in our trap & when trying to transfer her to a kennel she got away. Dam it all how am I supposed to find peace if she's still out there somewhere with the ability to keep breeding dozens of more stray kitties.
I can't begin to tell you the physical aspect of the last couple days but even emotionally I feel like I want to say "Lord, I know you wanted me to have the job of guardian angel to your critters but I can't stand this one, what the @#)$(*#(&*$# am I supposed to do, yikes. I'm so praying that he'll draw these last 3 cats to our cat trap/cages so I can have peace.
Maybe I shd wonder - why am I such a suck for all these animals. My last guardian angel assignment had been abt 3 weeks ago outside the back of the cat shelter where we were chasing & rounding up 6 little ducklings that had no mother around, yikes was that en event.
Like am I weird or what friends reading this??????
Lets throw my lupus into the mix shall we. Our Lord must truly be guarding me in that respect because how I'm holding that in check is beyond my understanding at this point.
OK, I've got a super dear lady friend here, we became quite close over the last 3 yrs & she's going thru a horrible time with the guy she's living with. She told me once a while back that she spent so much time in life praying for a sister & that the Lord finally gave her me. I'm trying to keep part of me for her as she so always does for me.
When all is said & done I'm praying that I can dig deep for enough of me to get around here.
I would so appreciate prayers for Friday a.m. for us. I promise I'll keep everyone posted whether it's good or yes even bad (not right!!!!!)
Sorry if I rambled here and/or didn't make much sense but I just kind of typed as the emotions were flowing & this is how it came out.
I'm so all over the place sometimes lately that I swear most people could think I'm suffering from a split personality, just crazy. I went for pizza & to the Josh Groban concert last night with a dear friend & I'd have minutes where I just couldn't seem to focus on anything then I'd be fine then not, etc. etc. but what really did me in was the last song he sang "You Raise Me Up" & for some bizarre moment I just almost wanted to cry. We get the final word on hubby Friday morning. Darn it I've been trying to stay big, tough, strong, etc. etc., but at this very moment I want to say "stop the world I'm getting off".
I've spent the last 2 and a half days trying to trap/catch a feral female cat & her 5 kittens in order to get them off the street. We finally got the last kitten Sunday a.m. & got them all safely to the Humane Society but a super wonderful lady who is my work partner at the shelter fell in love with mommy & took her home. Mommy was no feral & is the sweetest most scared & confused little lady kitty but my work partner will so love & spoil her. She already has 2 dogs & 2 cats but thats the type of person she is. The problem is there is one more stray mommy kitty with 2 kittens still out there but for the last day they haven't been seen in their usual area. Hubby & I had her in our trap & when trying to transfer her to a kennel she got away. Dam it all how am I supposed to find peace if she's still out there somewhere with the ability to keep breeding dozens of more stray kitties.
I can't begin to tell you the physical aspect of the last couple days but even emotionally I feel like I want to say "Lord, I know you wanted me to have the job of guardian angel to your critters but I can't stand this one, what the @#)$(*#(&*$# am I supposed to do, yikes. I'm so praying that he'll draw these last 3 cats to our cat trap/cages so I can have peace.
Maybe I shd wonder - why am I such a suck for all these animals. My last guardian angel assignment had been abt 3 weeks ago outside the back of the cat shelter where we were chasing & rounding up 6 little ducklings that had no mother around, yikes was that en event.
Like am I weird or what friends reading this??????
Lets throw my lupus into the mix shall we. Our Lord must truly be guarding me in that respect because how I'm holding that in check is beyond my understanding at this point.
OK, I've got a super dear lady friend here, we became quite close over the last 3 yrs & she's going thru a horrible time with the guy she's living with. She told me once a while back that she spent so much time in life praying for a sister & that the Lord finally gave her me. I'm trying to keep part of me for her as she so always does for me.
When all is said & done I'm praying that I can dig deep for enough of me to get around here.
I would so appreciate prayers for Friday a.m. for us. I promise I'll keep everyone posted whether it's good or yes even bad (not right!!!!!)
Sorry if I rambled here and/or didn't make much sense but I just kind of typed as the emotions were flowing & this is how it came out.
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