This has been a really tough week. For starters I haven't heard from either of my sons. I know James probably can't right now. No one else on the N4M website has heard from their LO's either. But I really don't know what is going on with Nick. We got his picture proofs from the cruise he is on yesterday. He looks so unhappy. I don't know when the pics were taken. Maybe he was still 'cranking' at the time. idk. I'm just really worried. It has been a full 2 months since we have heard anything at all from him. I can't believe he hasn't been able to at least send an e-mail saying "I'm okay". Also, things have been really hard at work. I am really trying to keep a positive face. But that is becoming harder. The supervisors all got yelled at yesterday. I don't know if they should have been fussed at because I don't know all the details. Something they missed a deadline on. But the boss called them "lazy" and "arrogant". I do know that they are neither. My work load has been really heavy this week also. Mainly making phone calls, scheduling staff to come in for recertification, checking references for new hires. Plus my project. When I first said it could be ready by April 1, that seemed so far away. Now it seems like tomorrow. And today someone from corporate is coming. I am not sure why, but I am really nervous. And I have this really bad feeling that soon they are going to find out that I am just a big fake and don't deserve to be there. Oh well, if I get canned, I guess I won't be any worse off than I was before. If only I weren't so worthless.