rough time

just been up and dowen and having angizity ..latly ..don't know what is realy up with that .........hope it goes away soon ......I have been doing more paintings ..we are going to sell them at a fair we are going to ......to raise money for things we want to do ........with our mediation group .......and I am going to a fast for three days ..first we have a ceromony ..than we go I a sweat lodge ..than we have a lunch ...and than we go in our seperate tents to begging ..the fasts and medatitons and prayers .....I have riten dowen what a am going there to mediate on and pray for .....so I won't forget ...it is not this weakend but next weakend .......I was at a sweat loag  on this past Sunday ........when I relized I need to go to this ........so if nothing else it will be interesting .....there is a lodge there they will be having a sacred fire ..burning the hole time .......I just bought a small tow man tent ....to take with me and I have a tarp to put over it in case it Raines .........or when I see it I might need to by one .....we will see .........no chairs .....have to make a circle around the tent and you can't go out of that circle unless you have to go to the bathroom .......they have a nurse there .......to look after .....people like me who need meds ...and have bib eaters ......they give us maple sure up from the trees ......they call it suger water ......we will be going there on the Thursday and comming home on the Sunday ............................I have to rember to bring a cupple old pillows to ..sit on the ground ..we can't have chairs ......have to bring ..close for cold weather raining weather ....and sunny weather ...........have a hole list of things I need to bring ....can't forget an umbrella ..........I am going to have to add to the list ..lol ....so my closes will fit in my tent ...with me ............we have to bring gifts ....to give people there ..nothing expencive Dolores stor things or things we make ..so I am bring one or two small paintings .....and some Dolores stor things ................they have a family day on the last day but my h doesent want to go .......but I am going with my daughter and her son .....and a friend ..who will be cooking for us on the last day ..after our fast .....................right now we have started working on our ceiling ...in the living room ...it will look nice when it is done ...we are taking it slow ........my sister is coming up from Vancouver island ..this Thursday .....and for the weakend .....my brothers and sisters and my dad are doing the terry fox run ...but cinifex is on to ..I won't be going to the city with all those maney people all over .......the place .....not good for me ......take care ...