Rough night

I am going through a divorce after 12 years together.  I found out he was having an affair with a coworker from her husband via Facebook about 3months ago. I have since then been struggling with finding a place to live, file for divorce and deal with the fact that he is in an active relationship with this woman.

Things were rough for the past 2 years when I dedicated my life to Christ and I didn't want to drink, or smoke weed anymore.  I changed. He didn't.  We drifted apart. I resented him and he found validation in another woman who shares his life style. He recently admitted he's been on cocaine for a year!

It's been so painful and heartbreaking to deal with the way he has moved on so easily. I know the marriage is toxic and there is no way to reconcile . I am praying I will be out of here soon. Seeing him take a shower,  use the Cologne I got him for Christmas to go spend the night with her tonight was another low for me. 

I'm glad we have no children together . No real assets to divide. I'm just trying to survive until I can move out and just breathe easier