Rollercoaster emotions

I feel like physically and emotionally that I am on an unending rollercoaster! Some days my pain isn't too bad and other days it's horrendous! My bowel movements are all over the place. Some days I have 10 or more bowel movements a day passing very small amounts. Sometimes I have to really strain to have even one bowel movement. Other days I'm just bloated, gassy and pass only a little liquid stool. I've been using metamucil and a stool softener twice a day every day. I haven't been sleeping well. I'm either too hot or too cold, in pain or have to get up to go to the bathroom.  I always have very little energy but some days I am really weak not able to open the pull tab on a can of soup. I never know from day to day how I'm going to feel. I know this is all normal, par for the course but it's really hard! I have to be patient with myself and realize that I had a major surgery, that it will take a long while to feel better and for my bowels to regulate. There's a chance that my bowels will never completely regulate. I'm on a normal diet but still learning what foods help and which ones make it worse. I drink a lot and try to eat more fiber. It helps going on the colon cancer message board on here and one called The Colon Club. Also all the support from my friends on here and people on the other boards on here. I get lonely while my boyfriend is at work all day. He's gone from 11:15am until about 9:07pm because of the bus. Pathology results still aren't back. It's so hard to wait for them!