roller coaster

I'm finding this is like a roller coaster ride...  i felt like i was goin up for a while.. acceptance.. adapting..  handling the new things that are happening...  but then there are days like this... i saw my doc..he put me on reg dopamine now along with the azilect and requip...   today was just a bad day.. and the worst part is i can't really explain how bad..  last night i woke up in middle of night with horrible calf muscle cramp...  today all day it's been like a dull cramp so now i am afraid to go to sleep...  i can't win for losing there was the insomnia then was able to sleep yesterday but awakened by cramp...  i'm not complaining i know there is more to come..  i guess i just didn't know how quick..  i'm just feeling sorry for myself tonigt.. goodnight