Reverting to old patterns???

Ok....here it goes. So I am supposed to be in VPO court against my ex this week. My question is am I just doing this to hang-on cause that is what i am used to doing? Or am I justified in my actions. Shortly after I broke off the relationship he started bragging to family & friends about when he broke my front tooth and how expensive it was to get it fixed, he started drinking again and is not supposed to be driving. I was afraid because I know what he is capable of doing. So, I filed a Victim Protection Order. Now I have to face him in court again. I know my family & friends are tired of hearing about it, i have not mentioned this to them. Please help me clarify my decision.