Restrictions??
it really feels like every single person i used to know is ignoring me and doesn't have time for me like at all! and the only friend i have left (my mentor friend) is out of town, so i won't here from her for a while. And why does everyone i know put all these restrictions on me and not other people in their life? Am i not worth being loved so deeply where there are no restrictions?? i just don't get why things were always this way with every person i come across. why?????
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I can totally relate to your bewilderment and frustration. Thank you for befriending me BTW, please forgive me that I\'m not online too much anymore so if I seem to \"disappear\" it\'s due to migraines, PAIN physical and emotional, and it literally HURTS my hands and arms to type on the DS site, I don\'t know why that is, even tho my computer s a dinasour I do not have near the trouble typing in my email, or couple of other sites I check out now and then. It\'s liike I have to really press hard on each key to get anything written down. Even after this short note to you, my jjoints are killing me,and I am NOT in any \"advanced\" stage of arthritis, it\'s troubleing cuz I know I could get a lot of suppot and help if it were possible for me to come to DS site and interact more and get to know others who can relate to what I go thru.....it\'s frustrating to say the least. But I just wanted to let you know cuz another DS friend of mine has written journal entries and he is clearly in pain and feeling ignored/unappreciated by his friends at DS and it makes me feel sad that anyone would think they\'re being ignored, becuz I know how bad it feels to not feel \"a part of\" ironically that\'s how I FOUND DS cuz after all the fun filled party years, then the tragedies and violence I\'ve experienced, I find myself so damn isolated, I do what I can to alleviate it but nothing is working. I\'ve been married 3 times, widowed at 29 (i\'m 49 now...) divorced, and no children, and I really alowed my exhusbands to \"convince\" me I did not want to reproduce, they were all a couple of decades older than me but in my 20s and 30s I just didn\'t buy into it that I\'d find mysef Lonely in later years cuz I chose to not have children . . . . .I have 4 siblngs, 9 nieces and nephews, 15 great nieces & nephews, lots of friends from thru the years, yet I find myself sooooo extremely alone no matter what I do. AndI I am determined to not settle for \"less\" as I have in th past to AVOID feeling so alone. thank you for adding me to your friend list, it helps to know someone in the universe is reaching out, I\'m not in a good place right now......severe depression and I know I need to get my meds checked orSOMETHIG cuz this is so not cool at all! Bless you, Your Friend, Valerie