restricted........

so in my previous journal i talked about how upset i was when i went to college and turned in that paperwork...WELL that day i was so upset that i restricted...it wasn't much....just my morning snack and afternoon snack....i mean it wasn't that big of a deal....well I don't thikn it's that big of a deal, but my therapist was saying that there are 3 parts to eating: nutrional-we need food to be healthy, emotional-it's okay to have some comfort foods once in awhile and social-eating with people is good, too.....she said once those things get out of balance that's when we go into crisis and our ED behaviors come up...so when i told her i had restricted she said that the emotional part of me was out of whack(she didn't use that phrase) and that i needed to think of better ways to channel the depression and anger of the situation....i just thought it was interesting....i'm a little worried about today....i have a dietitan appointment and she hasta see my food log....i'm sure she'll look at it and see how disgusting and how fat of a pig i am and tell me that i need to stop eating......i mean, I look at it, and it's totally disgusting how much i eat!!!!!