restrict, restrict, restrict....

i babysat today...right after work....so on the way to the house i ate some crunchy granola bars..there were two in a package....then i got home at 3....i still haven't eaten until noon, so i'm restricting again.....my dietitian told me that she won't change my meal plan until i don't restrict or anything.....i'm kinda hungry and i know that this isn't healthy, but it's under control now....before it wasn't...now it is, right??? i dunno....i still kinda feel like i need to restrict and lose more weight.....my head hurts and my back hurts.....i just wanna be myself again..