rest in peace my beautiful angel.

This letter is dedicated too the one woman that i adored, the woman that cared for me and loved me for the person I am.
My nanna.
hello my beautiful angel,
how are you? hope your okay up there in heaven! its so hard without you here but im somehow trying too push myself through each day, im trying too put this brave face on, and im trying too make everyone believe im okay but im not.
seeing your coffin brought into church was the hardest thing i've done, i've been trying too fool myself that your gonna come home and today just made it seem so real, it has really sunk in today and its gotten too me so much...
nanna, you were everything too me, and you inspired me so much.
me and you were thick as thieves, and there was no separating us. now everythings been taken away from me and i cant deal with this pain.
it hurts too much nanna.
i feel so lonely, so cold. it feels like my life has just came crashing down around me, like everything i've ever tried too achieve is pointless.
theres no reason too live without you :'(
your everything too me nanna, and i dont want too believe your gone!
i know that tomorrow your gonna come through the door and say " i love you sweetheart" just like you used too do!
i know you will!
i cant deal with the thought of losing you, im scared that your gonna forget me!
r.i.p sleeping beauty
i love you xxx