Research and networking is definitely the key

Well after a couple of days in the support group I've gotten more answers to questions that have been plaguing my mind since i decided to have the surgery.  I am grateful for this site because I was minutes away from throwing in the towel.  My anxiety was up, and I started feeling like if i go through with it - it would probably be the biggest mistake i've ever mad in my life - but now I think if I don't I could truly regret it.  Despite my anxiety about the surgery and the negative thoughts about the excess skin (call it vain or whatever) I am really looking forward to a total lifestyle change.  I don't want to live the rest of my life worrying about my blood pressure, diabetes or the thought of having a heart attack. My sons said mommy you lived long enough to raise us, you have seen 3 grandchildren born, do you think you can be here when the great grands come?  I didn't know they thought like that or were worried about me the way that they are - but now that I do, I have to do this for them but more importantly to improve my own quality of life.  I'll never forget being in virginia with my son in walmart and how i had to keep stopping to take a breath because my legs hurt or my breathing became labored.  I tried to play it off, but he knew and no sooner than we got back to his house - he said "ma you have got to do something"  You have to choose to live.  Well, my choice has now been made - I choose to live for Me and my family.  Thank you God for leading me to this site and for constantly watching over me in my weakened state - I know that as I go forward you will continue to carry me, until I am well and able to carry myself.  I declare and decree this day, that this weight loss victory will be mine.