Reptition

Koon tells me that my writing would be better if I dropped the repetition-I agree. My life is very repetitious however, every day feels the same-what I saw as a reassuring routine has now become a straitjacket. No room for anything new, and a solid dose of moaning keeps the sameness in view. At the top of my thoughts is the-How long can I bear to carry on with the same old same old? How can I break through the routine and bring new stuff in?
Yesterday at work I found it very hard to keep making calls-especially as they are having a verbatim drive. The questions are so pedantic you feel driven to edit them into a more concise form.
Even writing 300 words is suddenly a struggle-damn it! I have felt good for so long-from the 15th of september-even though Ive been mostly blue in the mornings-for the last week Id been feeling good in the morning too. How annoying it is to tumble from the mountain top and roll like a big snowball all the way back down again to Base Camp. There is no rhyme or reason to it. Just wake up feeling depressed after waking up feeling elated. It's so painful.
Nothing to look forward to either.
My foot is still very sore.
I need to pull myself together somehow. Keep it together till Christmas when I get about 12 days off. Then another year looms-I need to stay in the moment. This is not my best work, so best to stop here.
I feel depressed, my foot is hurting and my job feels like a life sentence.
Apart from that everything is fine.