REPENTENCE AND NEW BEGINNINGS
WOW. HERE, LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN...WOW. I REALLY DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO BEGIN, AND I HAVE 38 MORE MINUTES TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT AND GET IT DOWN...MAKE THAT 37.HEHE. WELL, THANK GOD FOR LIBRARY COMPUTERS, YOU KNOW.
ANYWAY, WHEN YOU HAVE LIVED A LIFE FULL OF SIN WHILE DESTROYING RELATIONSHIPS LIKE I HAVE, I'M LUCKY JUST TO BE FREE TO BE IN A LIBRARY. I SHOULD BE, BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD IN PRISON RIGHT NOW, BUT INSTEAD I AM IN A LIFE RECOVERY SCHOOL AT THE DREAM CENTER IN PHOENIX, ARIZONA. BASICLY A CHRISTIAN BASED BOOTCAMP, FOR GUYS ON PAROLE, HOMELESS GUYS, DRUG AND ALCOHOL ABUSERS, AND FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO HAVE JUST GENERALLY DESTROYED THEIR LIFE BY BURNING EVERY BRIDGE, AND DESTROYING EVERY RELATIONSHIP I HAVE EVER HAD.
BUT...
THE THEME OF THIS JOURNAL IS ABOUT REPENTENCE AND NEW BEGINNINGS. I'VE BEEN AT THE DREAM CENTER FOR JUST UNDER 9 MONTHS NOW, AND ONE THING THAT HAS SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE, AND WOKEN ME UP IS REPENTENCE WHICH IS TO TURN AWAY FROM ALL OF MY WAYS AND SINS THAT DESTROYED MY LIFE, AND START OVER FROM SCRATCH WITH ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AND NO ONE, BUT MY CHRISTIAN BROTHERS HERE AT "CHURCH ON THE STREET." THAT'S THE NAME OF THE CHURCH HERE THAT LIVES AT THE DREAM CENTER.
SO, I'VE DESTROYED MY LIFE AND LOST EVERYTHING, BUT WITH THAT, I'VE GAINED A WHOLE NEW ATTITUDE, AND A WHOLE NEW RELATIONSHIP WITH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST. I HAVE DISCOVERED THE LAW OF GOD, AND WHAT IT MEANS TO HAVE A REVERENTIAL FEAR OF GOD. I AM NO LONGER RUNNING MY OWN RELIGION...THAT'S FOR SURE. I COULD GO BACK, AND ERASE MOST EVERY THING THAT I'VE WROTE, BUT I'M GOING TO KEEP IT AS A REFERENCE AND TESTIMONY AS TO WHERE I WAS, AND WHERE I AM NOW. BEING AT THE DREAM CENTER HAS REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE FROM THE INSIDE(MY HEART) OUT. I'M NOW ALL ABOUT CRUCIFYING THE FLESH, AND LIVING A RIGHTEOUS LIFE TO THE GLORY OF GOD. I REDEDICATED MY LIFE TO CHRIST, I GOT BAPTIZED AGAIN, I AM NOW TAKING MY MEDICATION FOR MY BI-POLAR DISORDER, AND I FEEL BRAND NEW. YES, I STILL HAVE NOTHING BUT A CLOSET FULL OF CLOTHES AND A FEW PAIRS OF SHOES. AND YES, I STILL HAVE NO ONE BUT MY BRO'S HERE WHICH IS COOL, BUT LIKE I SAID, AND AS THE SONG BY THIRD DAY GOES, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE BEEN BORN AGAIN...JUST LIKE A NEW BABE IN CHRIST, ALTHOUGH I'VE BEEN "SAVED" FOR OVER 17 YEARS NOW, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GROW THE UFF UP, AND BE A "REAL MAN" OF GOD. YES, THERE IS EVEN A CLASS HERE CALLED "MAXIMIZED MANHOOD" BASED ON THE BOOK ON HOW TO BE A REAL MAN WHICH IS TO BE CHRISTLIKE, BECAUSE LIKE THE BOOK SAYS, MANHOOD AND CHRISTLIKENESS IS SYNANOMOUS, AND NO, I CAN'T SPELL THAT WORD.HEHE.
WELL, THAT'S ALL THE TIME I HAVE FOR NOW, SO PEACE TO YOU ALL, AND GOD BLESS. AKA MAKE A DECISION BEFORE YOU DIE ON HEAVEN OR HELL. JESUS IN YOUR LIFE IS THE ONLY WAY TO HEAVEN, AND SATAN IN YOUR LIFE IS THE ONLY WAY TO HELL. PLEASE CHOOSE THE RIGHT ONE. THERE IS TRUELY ONLY 2 CHOICES, AND THE CHOICE IS COMPLETELY LEFT UP TO YOU. LIKE I SAID, PLEASE CHOOSE THE RIGHT ONE BEFORE YOU TAKE YOUR LAST BREATH.
...BUT LET ME SAY THIS, JESUS IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIVE YOU LIFE, AND LIFE ABUNDANTLY, AND SATAN CAME TO STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY. TRUST ME, THIS I NOW KNOW BOTH SIDES ALL TOO WELL, AND I'M ROLLIN' WIT' THE LORD JESUS FROM HERE ON OUT. PRAISE GOD.
PEACE, AND I'M OUT(OF TIME.HEHE)
ANYWAY, WHEN YOU HAVE LIVED A LIFE FULL OF SIN WHILE DESTROYING RELATIONSHIPS LIKE I HAVE, I'M LUCKY JUST TO BE FREE TO BE IN A LIBRARY. I SHOULD BE, BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD IN PRISON RIGHT NOW, BUT INSTEAD I AM IN A LIFE RECOVERY SCHOOL AT THE DREAM CENTER IN PHOENIX, ARIZONA. BASICLY A CHRISTIAN BASED BOOTCAMP, FOR GUYS ON PAROLE, HOMELESS GUYS, DRUG AND ALCOHOL ABUSERS, AND FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO HAVE JUST GENERALLY DESTROYED THEIR LIFE BY BURNING EVERY BRIDGE, AND DESTROYING EVERY RELATIONSHIP I HAVE EVER HAD.
BUT...
THE THEME OF THIS JOURNAL IS ABOUT REPENTENCE AND NEW BEGINNINGS. I'VE BEEN AT THE DREAM CENTER FOR JUST UNDER 9 MONTHS NOW, AND ONE THING THAT HAS SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE, AND WOKEN ME UP IS REPENTENCE WHICH IS TO TURN AWAY FROM ALL OF MY WAYS AND SINS THAT DESTROYED MY LIFE, AND START OVER FROM SCRATCH WITH ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AND NO ONE, BUT MY CHRISTIAN BROTHERS HERE AT "CHURCH ON THE STREET." THAT'S THE NAME OF THE CHURCH HERE THAT LIVES AT THE DREAM CENTER.
SO, I'VE DESTROYED MY LIFE AND LOST EVERYTHING, BUT WITH THAT, I'VE GAINED A WHOLE NEW ATTITUDE, AND A WHOLE NEW RELATIONSHIP WITH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST. I HAVE DISCOVERED THE LAW OF GOD, AND WHAT IT MEANS TO HAVE A REVERENTIAL FEAR OF GOD. I AM NO LONGER RUNNING MY OWN RELIGION...THAT'S FOR SURE. I COULD GO BACK, AND ERASE MOST EVERY THING THAT I'VE WROTE, BUT I'M GOING TO KEEP IT AS A REFERENCE AND TESTIMONY AS TO WHERE I WAS, AND WHERE I AM NOW. BEING AT THE DREAM CENTER HAS REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE FROM THE INSIDE(MY HEART) OUT. I'M NOW ALL ABOUT CRUCIFYING THE FLESH, AND LIVING A RIGHTEOUS LIFE TO THE GLORY OF GOD. I REDEDICATED MY LIFE TO CHRIST, I GOT BAPTIZED AGAIN, I AM NOW TAKING MY MEDICATION FOR MY BI-POLAR DISORDER, AND I FEEL BRAND NEW. YES, I STILL HAVE NOTHING BUT A CLOSET FULL OF CLOTHES AND A FEW PAIRS OF SHOES. AND YES, I STILL HAVE NO ONE BUT MY BRO'S HERE WHICH IS COOL, BUT LIKE I SAID, AND AS THE SONG BY THIRD DAY GOES, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE BEEN BORN AGAIN...JUST LIKE A NEW BABE IN CHRIST, ALTHOUGH I'VE BEEN "SAVED" FOR OVER 17 YEARS NOW, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GROW THE UFF UP, AND BE A "REAL MAN" OF GOD. YES, THERE IS EVEN A CLASS HERE CALLED "MAXIMIZED MANHOOD" BASED ON THE BOOK ON HOW TO BE A REAL MAN WHICH IS TO BE CHRISTLIKE, BECAUSE LIKE THE BOOK SAYS, MANHOOD AND CHRISTLIKENESS IS SYNANOMOUS, AND NO, I CAN'T SPELL THAT WORD.HEHE.
WELL, THAT'S ALL THE TIME I HAVE FOR NOW, SO PEACE TO YOU ALL, AND GOD BLESS. AKA MAKE A DECISION BEFORE YOU DIE ON HEAVEN OR HELL. JESUS IN YOUR LIFE IS THE ONLY WAY TO HEAVEN, AND SATAN IN YOUR LIFE IS THE ONLY WAY TO HELL. PLEASE CHOOSE THE RIGHT ONE. THERE IS TRUELY ONLY 2 CHOICES, AND THE CHOICE IS COMPLETELY LEFT UP TO YOU. LIKE I SAID, PLEASE CHOOSE THE RIGHT ONE BEFORE YOU TAKE YOUR LAST BREATH.
...BUT LET ME SAY THIS, JESUS IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIVE YOU LIFE, AND LIFE ABUNDANTLY, AND SATAN CAME TO STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY. TRUST ME, THIS I NOW KNOW BOTH SIDES ALL TOO WELL, AND I'M ROLLIN' WIT' THE LORD JESUS FROM HERE ON OUT. PRAISE GOD.
PEACE, AND I'M OUT(OF TIME.HEHE)
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