Remission?
Can't believe how much better i feel and was able to attend my open mic, sing along on stage and have a day at home where I actually stayed upright to do some food packaging, note taking and reading(sitting of course).
I remember Darla commenting on how weird it felt to have remission. I've been through it so,often but I still get mixed feelings (joy, relief) but also,anger and depression thinking (Oh yeah, that's what it used to feel like, the life I lost.)
I especially enjoy the lack of anxiety and depression, feel like a different person. Impossible not to be struck by grief, seeing so many situations I handled poorly. And why? Because I wasn't in remission!
The good feeling never lasts more than 2 months and often can end in one week or one day. Spiritually I am hoping to have more discipline when I feel really sick and panicky, to say, don't look behind. The past no longer exists and in the words of Deepak Chopra, the past is "movies and ghosts".
Hope all my DS friends are feeling some love and light!!
I remember Darla commenting on how weird it felt to have remission. I've been through it so,often but I still get mixed feelings (joy, relief) but also,anger and depression thinking (Oh yeah, that's what it used to feel like, the life I lost.)
I especially enjoy the lack of anxiety and depression, feel like a different person. Impossible not to be struck by grief, seeing so many situations I handled poorly. And why? Because I wasn't in remission!
The good feeling never lasts more than 2 months and often can end in one week or one day. Spiritually I am hoping to have more discipline when I feel really sick and panicky, to say, don't look behind. The past no longer exists and in the words of Deepak Chopra, the past is "movies and ghosts".
Hope all my DS friends are feeling some love and light!!
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So glad you are feeling better! Yea! And gotta love that Deepak...smart guy. :) love and light to you pouty...
Feel terrible that I somehow missed your journals . Wouldn\'t it be incredible if the good days just stayed forever. Just might happen one fine day.Yep Deepak Chopra is excellent, he has a lot of valuable realizations to share.I enjoy his books. Love and light to you too my friend.