Reminder to self

Shouldn't trust an addict. 
This is not my brother. This is a shell of my brother. 
This is not my fault.
I am not responsible for his child. 
I have a life too. 
 
Then, why do I feel so badly inside? It hurts not trusting him. Hurts not having my own brother around. Hurts that there's nothing I can do for him but stay away. Hurts that there's a child I am not taking out from the gutter. 
I should better forget all about him. Everything about him. Until he decides to come back from zombieland. 
Reminder to self: my brother is imprisoned in his own body. Nobody has the key. Only he.