Reminder to self
Shouldn't trust an addict.
This is not my brother. This is a shell of my brother.
This is not my fault.
I am not responsible for his child.
I have a life too.
Then, why do I feel so badly inside? It hurts not trusting him. Hurts not having my own brother around. Hurts that there's nothing I can do for him but stay away. Hurts that there's a child I am not taking out from the gutter.
I should better forget all about him. Everything about him. Until he decides to come back from zombieland.
Reminder to self: my brother is imprisoned in his own body. Nobody has the key. Only he.
This is not my brother. This is a shell of my brother.
This is not my fault.
I am not responsible for his child.
I have a life too.
Then, why do I feel so badly inside? It hurts not trusting him. Hurts not having my own brother around. Hurts that there's nothing I can do for him but stay away. Hurts that there's a child I am not taking out from the gutter.
I should better forget all about him. Everything about him. Until he decides to come back from zombieland.
Reminder to self: my brother is imprisoned in his own body. Nobody has the key. Only he.
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I had been thinking about you my friend, Pen, wondering when you would write something interesting for me to read again! And everything you wrote is So true. Do not trust him, and my husband tells me all the time.. Karen, you can not save the world.. I do hope he comes back to you because there is nothing like having a brother. I tell people when they are in dispute with their sibling to be careful, it could always be worse. Peace, Karen
Hey Karen, thanks for posting... Gladly my brother and I are not in dispute. The reason is that we are not in contact anymore. I keep my distance and he keeps his. I know that when he is ready to see me, he\'ll do it. He needs his time I guess, and I am fine with it. I long for the day I see his eyes bright and clear and his charming smile true and honest. I believe in miracles. A little god resides in all of us.