Remind me I\'m not alone...

I am shaking I am so mad and upset right now…funny how quickly it can turn! I don’t even know where to start, Insurance, medical bills, how on earth it somehow ended up being my job to keep track of those things when I thought that’s why we were paying SO MUCH money to insurance companies and medical offices I will never know! It any another full time job on top of ALL the others we seem to have. I just want to curl up and cry and forget this whole thing, just adopt, they just make it so difficult you wonder if its worth it, unless you f’ing rich enough to just pay for it all regardless of whether you need it or not it’s just so hard. Still fight about my 1st cycle, now about the FET and here I am trying to go into another one and I wonder if I do have the strength. I don’t know what to do, where to turn, I don’t feel like I have enough in mean to maneuver through the crap that goes along with it. How many f’ing insensitive morons do we have to deal with while struggling with our treatment. All the while supposedly keeping calm! I’m sorry I’m making no sense, I’m just so mad, sad, confused, just like that drowning again!