relationship issues

It gets so emotionally exhausting being completely mentally fucked.. I mean nothing i do is enough for anyone these days.. Earl has completely morphed into a monster.. Its heartbreaking to even look at him anymor.. I really dont know why im putting myself threw any of it anymore.. I literally find myself nearing suicidal status with most of our arguments.. He has a tracking app, app that tracks my texts, and my facebook password so he can do as he pleases. I rarely can even lock tge bathroom door to shit. I mean Jesus Christ.. Wtf!! All he wants to do is blame me but that is just as fake as the man hes acted like lately.. I want to leave and be done but my heart wont let me give up on the man i fell in love with and attwmpts to bring him back... But so sick of struggling. He doesnt take care of me.. Not emotionally monitarily sexually.. Nothing.. Seriously what am i doing???