Relapsing

  I am getting really saddened at the amount of relapsers in DS.  I am one of them.  That alone is depressing.  But what really upsets me the most are the long-timers that are relapsing.Gawd this makes me so....I don't know....sad is not really the word for it.  Disparaged?For some reason, though, I am happy and hopeful today.  Not really sure why but I feel happy.