Relapses suck :(

I don't understand.  When I joined this site I made a mental promise to myself to stop pulling and actually made it a good 30 days.  I was sooooo proud of myself.  Ever since I broke down from emotional stress I can't stop.  My eyebrows have huge gaps in them now and look like absolute crap.  I just can't seem to get myself back in the mindset of not pulling again.  The urges have come back in full force and I'm really upset with myself.  Those 30 days showed that I can do this, but I can't seem to regain control and it's making me miserable again.  I've totally let myself down.  I really need to snap out of this :(