RELAPSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is a monster who lives in my head, He talks to me softly he wants me dead.He tells me this time I'll stay in control. He tells me not to let anyone know.He convinces me that no one cares, He whispers the pain is to much to bear.He tells me how wonderful I will feel. He tells me he loves me and it is real.He tells me not to call anyone, My heart starts racing, he tells me it will be fun.He tells me not to think of past times, He promises I can do it just once this timeWho is this monster who calls me by name, RELAPSE, he waiting to start the game.i hope you enjoy this poem and for you who are addicts like me will understand that ,that monster never dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Nancy Roy