Relapse?

I haven't been active on this site for some time. I really am not sure what I'm doing here again. I'm super depressed, unfulfilled and unhappy. I have no idea why. I also am quite overweight... this is a first for me. I got into a new relationship and had let myself go... recently at the doctor I was told that I needed to lose weight. I guess that's what my ED needed to hear to break free from it's dormancy. I am struggling with eating, and resisting binging. Everything just sucks right now. I am just really lost, confused and sad.