Relief

You know that moment when you really realize that you have finally found your truth is when you can accept some harsh truths. Stop reading this now if you don't want to hear my ugly truth. I decided that this year I was going to face some ugly truths about myself. Last year was horrible, my health was failing me but once the doctors fixed me they asked me to do a few simple things. Eat right and exercise. Well tried that stop doing it and gained more weight than I lost. Now I'm back to being a fat slob. Oh how wonderful. Knees and back hurting all the time. Can't walk more than 5 feet without having to stop. Yeah great right. It's ridiculous!!
Then my husband and I went through a really, really tough spot and I made a HUGE mistake that could have caused me my marriage because I felt like he wasn't appreciating me enough.
Then at the end of December he ends up in the hospital. To say that I felt like God was punishing me for not obeying his word was an understatement. I felt like I was cursed.
My bff just asked me to name 10 good things about myself. At this time I just can't do it. Once I've accomplished some things I will be able to do so. Because this year is my year of TRUTH and RESTORATION. It's also the year of IMPACT at the TOP. I know through lots of hard-work, determination, study, spiritual guidance and love I will accomplish every goal I plan to reach. Not just for this year but for my life. This is not just a change for 2015 this is a life change.