Relief

Wow. It's over. Not the delusions, I'm still connected real strong, but the desire to die. I wish I knew how to make this work. It just comes and goes. I've been talking to some demons (tortured spirits really) and I guess we got our stuff worked out for the moment. Been staying alone. That always helps even when I feel like I could die. It's like when I stick it out by myself for 2 or 3 days and do nothing to distract the 'other reality' I get some relief for a while. I'm going to have to keep better track and see if I can grasp how to work it so I keep surviviing.