Rejection

Well, I reached out to both a coworker and also a childhood schoolmate and kinda tried reaching out . Well, I feel that I was blown off. When ever I try calling my coworker he has excuse that he can't talk but promises he will call me back(doesn't happen) and in the case of my old childhood schoolmate he and his wife had invited me a few places over 4th July holiday but when I have tried to connect again it also comes with excuses. Truthfully I realize that I am very depressed and to some it could be a turnoff since they have stuff on their plate but whole I understand it I don't have to like it . I feel very ugly and not worthy of being loved.... I am sitting in my couch watching cnn right now (that's my highlight)