Rehab...

So my AH went to rehab...he’s been there for a while now and won’t be returning for another month or so.  He called today to say he’s doing fine...and asked how we were.  I lied and said everything was good.  He thinks things must be so much easier here without him and said he’s been getting so much rest.  I’m really just a mess right now...stressed with bills, kids, homework, sports, work, lack of sleep, and everything in between. I’m so worried about how things will be when he returns. Usually Ehen they become sober they pick up some other terrible habit and my AH seems to be flirting over text.  I don’t know if they can cure him their and if they can’t what’s next? I’ve been such a good wife sticking around through thick and thin and loyal as hell only to be betrayed every which way.  I don’t know wether to believe him when he says he thinks of me every day...who else? My life is a mess...I feel upset at him for wanting to come home after his rehab and tell people where he’s been.  I don’t!  I feel like it’s my life too and I don’t want any sympathy from anyone or my kids to become affected by it with their friends or my work.  Why should he get to decide?  I have to live with it too.  Im tired and need a vacation I can’t afford.  Here’s to loneliness and bitterness, I hope things look up from here soon.