Regret

This lonliness is killing me. I somehow get by the day with my work and everything but just when I lay on my bed at night, her thoughts start kicking in my head and I can't fight them. Almost everything reminds me of her some way or the other. Its starting to get annoying and frastrating. Why do people do that? Make promises and commitments and then they just leave when it doesn't suit them anymore. We were so good together. She was the one to ask me to marry her. It hurts like hell and I can't just get her out of my mind just like she got me out of her life. I remember the look on her face when we last met and she said that she didn't want to see me anymore...she didn't even look at me when she said that. I put everything on the line for her..my father wished to see me get married before he passed away but she just had me waiting and I was such an idiot to have believed her. I should have seen this coming, I shouldn't have trusted blindly...I guess all of this is my fault and I can't forgive myself..