Regressing, What An Awful Word
You know, I've always felt I'm quite a fighter but right at this moment I feel like I'm hanging on a very small ledge & if I let go it's a hell of a long scary way down.
When I was changing for bed last night I, much to my horror, noticed I had vasculitis over the bottom of my legs. Way back at the beginning of my lupus adventure I had a major all over issue with vasculitis which had resulted in my chemo treatments. Anyway, suffice it to say that I was big time upset when I saw this & it was topped off with a slow boil of panic. It did make me stop & take more notice of the oddities I've been experiencing for several weeks now. The pieces of a puzzle I'm not really liking at all. A main one is pain issues that set in later in the day. Like today all I've done is tidy the kitchen, sweep the floors, a load of laundry & now at 4 p.m.ish there's some hand/wrist pain, knees are starting, ankles are sort of irritated & itching & of course there's my nice little vasculitis spots. Some did go away over night though so maybe it's possible I've got this in time.
The pain thing started off and on a few wks ago but because it was off & on I thought well maybe it was a diet issue, cold weather & you know the several other things that come & go in life that you might question.
And, the energy thing. I wonder if others have times where they can't necessarily see the forest for the trees health wise.
All I know is, DARN IT, I will not go back there again, I refuse to let my body cheat me & go back to that ugly place of so many years ago.
Well thats it, not much more I can say right now I guess.
When I was changing for bed last night I, much to my horror, noticed I had vasculitis over the bottom of my legs. Way back at the beginning of my lupus adventure I had a major all over issue with vasculitis which had resulted in my chemo treatments. Anyway, suffice it to say that I was big time upset when I saw this & it was topped off with a slow boil of panic. It did make me stop & take more notice of the oddities I've been experiencing for several weeks now. The pieces of a puzzle I'm not really liking at all. A main one is pain issues that set in later in the day. Like today all I've done is tidy the kitchen, sweep the floors, a load of laundry & now at 4 p.m.ish there's some hand/wrist pain, knees are starting, ankles are sort of irritated & itching & of course there's my nice little vasculitis spots. Some did go away over night though so maybe it's possible I've got this in time.
The pain thing started off and on a few wks ago but because it was off & on I thought well maybe it was a diet issue, cold weather & you know the several other things that come & go in life that you might question.
And, the energy thing. I wonder if others have times where they can't necessarily see the forest for the trees health wise.
All I know is, DARN IT, I will not go back there again, I refuse to let my body cheat me & go back to that ugly place of so many years ago.
Well thats it, not much more I can say right now I guess.
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I Will Be Praying For You..
PROMISE !
Please, KEEP THE FAITH.
Love Ya, Barbara
hi! im here for u,hugs,
Big giant gentle hugs and blessings.
xoxo
Cathy
I wish I had some good advice, but all I can really say is that -- yes we all go through ups and downs with health and emotions and dealing with it, so you are not alone there. Could it be a new supplement or just winter causing some flaring? I pray that it passes quickly, that you find a way to stay elevated mentally above it all and look down upon your \"lowly\" pesky symtoms (that they don\'t drag your emotions and such with them, how dare they?!). I pray that you find grace, peace, joy, strength, wisdom and encouragement. love you!
I\'m so sorry you are going through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I\'m here if you want to vent. I\'m a good listener.
Hugs and love Nance
Oh dear, not good to read this. You should go to the doctor\'s for a visit? Your in my prayers as always. Just rest and let God take over. You seem to do so much. Your always busy and with this cold weather it probably isn\'t helping any! I am going to pray for you sweetie. Love and gentle hugs, frieda