Regressing, What An Awful Word
You know, I've always felt I'm quite a fighter but right at this moment I feel like I'm hanging on a very small ledge & if I let go it's a hell of a long scary way down.
When I was changing for bed last night I, much to my horror, noticed I had vasculitis over the bottom of my legs. Way back at the beginning of my lupus adventure I had a major all over issue with vasculitis which had resulted in my chemo treatments. Anyway, suffice it to say that I was big time upset when I saw this & it was topped off with a slow boil of panic. It did make me stop & take more notice of the oddities I've been experiencing for several weeks now. The pieces of a puzzle I'm not really liking at all. A main one is pain issues that set in later in the day. Like today all I've done is tidy the kitchen, sweep the floors, a load of laundry & now at 4 p.m.ish there's some hand/wrist pain, knees are starting, ankles are sort of irritated & itching & of course there's my nice little vasculitis spots. Some did go away over night though so maybe it's possible I've got this in time.
The pain thing started off and on a few wks ago but because it was off & on I thought well maybe it was a diet issue, cold weather & you know the several other things that come & go in life that you might question.
And, the energy thing. I wonder if others have times where they can't necessarily see the forest for the trees health wise.
All I know is, DARN IT, I will not go back there again, I refuse to let my body cheat me & go back to that ugly place of so many years ago.
Well thats it, not much more I can say right now I guess.
When I was changing for bed last night I, much to my horror, noticed I had vasculitis over the bottom of my legs. Way back at the beginning of my lupus adventure I had a major all over issue with vasculitis which had resulted in my chemo treatments. Anyway, suffice it to say that I was big time upset when I saw this & it was topped off with a slow boil of panic. It did make me stop & take more notice of the oddities I've been experiencing for several weeks now. The pieces of a puzzle I'm not really liking at all. A main one is pain issues that set in later in the day. Like today all I've done is tidy the kitchen, sweep the floors, a load of laundry & now at 4 p.m.ish there's some hand/wrist pain, knees are starting, ankles are sort of irritated & itching & of course there's my nice little vasculitis spots. Some did go away over night though so maybe it's possible I've got this in time.
The pain thing started off and on a few wks ago but because it was off & on I thought well maybe it was a diet issue, cold weather & you know the several other things that come & go in life that you might question.
And, the energy thing. I wonder if others have times where they can't necessarily see the forest for the trees health wise.
All I know is, DARN IT, I will not go back there again, I refuse to let my body cheat me & go back to that ugly place of so many years ago.
Well thats it, not much more I can say right now I guess.
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